Saturn/Scorpio skrying

Saturn in Scorpio: Samhain!

6:40 PM 10/31/2009

Moon in Aries is sextile Jupiter. Saturn in the first degree of Libra is closely square Pluto.
The libation is our homegrown wormwood flowers tinctured in vodka. The bottle is in the shape of a skull and I consecrated it to Death during the last Venus-Mars conjunction. It's delicious, not too bitter at all, and sort of like chamomile-mint or pennyroyal, I think from the floral contribution. The energy of it is pretty intense. In fact this invocation was harsh; just doing the Scorpio pentagrams took me from feeling great to a twinge of headache. The libation is improving that actually. I'm glad I made it, this is an unusual flavor that I will enjoy getting used to.

There is a black sea at night with green phosphorescence under the waves. Deep red shapes like stingrays are swimming underneath, each a few meters wide and lit strangely from all around. the vision doesn't progress until I get into the water, I feel weighed-down and cold and it is unsettling; nor do I see much, I just feel enveloped in this substance. I have the thought of amniotic fluid, yet do not feel fetal so much as in an alien place having an alien experience of being slowly warped. I start swimming because again the scene is static, until I see a door into an underwater cavern. Though I open the door I greatly do not like the look of entering here, like death's back door, some disused portal, very dangerous. I swim up and away from it and leave the vision. That experience was claustrophobic and difficult to interpret.