Venus in Libra skrying

Venus in Libra - Cherry brandy resurrection

11:50 PM 10/23/2009

Venus in Libra is crossing the IC and is trine Jupiter. Moon in Capricorn just passed the square with Venus and is otherwise unaspected; she is also closely conjunct my natal Venus.

I've had a fever today, but right now I feel okay. The ritual was powerful, I feel a lot of energy on the top of my head.

I just tasted the cherry mead we added honey to - it is so much better! The rest of the bottles won't be this sweet, since this one was only a third full when we added the honey ounce. The consecration made it feel very full of life.

The equality of men and women has been on my mind today, in terms of the concept humans have of God. That the male and female principles exist in a dynamic partnership is obvious everywhere in nature, and it is common to fall back on thinking of the divine, in its aspect as the oneness that unites all that is, in terms of the male principle only. I was thinking that due to this habit, the Golden Dawn tree of life even seems feminist at first since there are female concepts of god represented *at all*. But it isn't; the benefics are all male; the malefics are all female; both lights, Sun and Moon, are male.

I feel as though I've mistakenly tolerated a lot of chauvenism because I was raised in such a bitterly male-hating climate, and I wanted to make up for it by caring about the male perspective. This is funny, since it wasn't very long ago that young men still felt that way about women, wanting to be more sensitive and therefore taking a lot of shit. Now I want to cease perceiving this relationship as a power struggle, and start seeing it as a partnership. I want to see men and women go back to loving each other, and increasing the power of both by sharing their energy with one another - in a sexualized context or not. Furthermore, I wish to see us all cease the internalization of self-hatred that we sometimes take on as a sort of unconscious favor to the other (whatever type of other), putting them first out of guilt and then resenting them; it's no favor to any lover or friend to hate ourselves. In fact, self-hatred is the root of the persecution of people that we feel conflicted about due to the ways they do not mirror us.

Wishing to see through someone else's eyes, that's what this combination seems to be about. Self-love and self-hate, love of another for their differences and hatred of the same. We covet and condemn, we are fascinated and fearful, but what we need to do is to be human with each other and not define ourselves along a single axis of polarity.